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Thursday, January 17, 2008 @ 7:40:00 PM "Believe in truth, beauty, freedom, and above all things, love." Moulin Rouge. I started off 2008 with the motivation to study, I don't know what happened from then till now. I started off wanting my 4 As and the drive to work for it, but I don't know what has happened to that as well. At some point in time I found myself thinking it's alright to just give up. It's okay if you don't realise that dream of majoring arts in Cambridge or Stanford, it's okay if you don't even get into NUS. Dreams are dreams, reality is another thing. And other times when I'm my more sober self, I feel scared at even having those thoughts. I don't know why I'm so bloody unmotivated now and why I'm still stuck in the era of The O Levels and PAE 2007. It's time to move on, your life can't stay at that moment forever. It can't stay at the moment when you got your 7 points for ever. Tired drilling it into my mind, very often so, but it just can't get through. I don't know what's wrong with me. :( Sometimes I feel like going back to stnicks just to talk to Mrs Goh or Mrs Koh. How did they manage to make us all so inspired during our sec4 days. & I remember Mrs Koh saying we'll all realise how protected we are in stnicks only after we leave the school. I think she's right. The Gray batch, a long time has passed indeed. I shall stop procrastinating and go do my econs essay now. |